And today my one strife is emblazoning incisions in a tome
For an open-heart surgery. And today I beat against – beat my body to a pulp –
Stone archways and doorways all through an imaginary Rhine divested of
Character. The phrase “I’m poor” wringing my inner-ear like cat candy.
Today I feel – how worthless –“I feel” “I feel;” These are completely words
I churn into a somnolent machine who refuses to transmit joy,
And cracking the code means putting your head in an oven.           What?

On Ēriks Ešenvalds’s “Stars”

 

Break me gently

Be spilled your light this

song has been the companion

Of my soul for before I was born

Hushing followed like a quiet

A cracking home and the walls

Fall down to you bowed

Sentries silk and armor

Labor

Labor of my soul, lover

Of myself, go gently

Into glory, you spoke

Me into life.

One secret gentle in abundance

Explored me tender ‘til

I find myself a small surrender

A last memory framed

in grass and light where

Walks an angel savior of my silent

Soul, humble and old

Ancient friend, ahead of me

before.

A small crack

Into eternity render me

Oh most love, sweet ripe and life

And the pain of over beauty

And the bigness of heavens

The sounds in this sky and all skies

Jewels in and out of myself

 

Encrusting the very birth of

Every new possible

Every growth in light

The birth of lights and

Awe in everlasting

Everlasting

Everlasting

Last.

The majesty

Is

Always

Stars.

 

 

The legion of the lived

I sensed a chorus underground
Lurched the shoes and smoke, 
would break cathedrals in half
when it sounded up from the rock.
 
In a dirty limestone city of Christ 
The underworldly plains rolled out
bruising skies, and birds the size
of men, who rattled in their clothes
 
The gems between their fingers
glittered like red stars from roofs 
and opening the thick black dirt
grew and grew a quiet coliseum the 
voices marching up 

Sanctum

Did you know your 

Inner words your 

swirling sentences 

That they can

they can

steam up

 

steam up your sockets

That they can light up 

You 

And that

You

 

can be 

The light in the room

In lieu of power and 

Rage 

Or for exploding:

Love and shout 

A toast to self 

 

Just the beautiful Your

Reality 

Of that

Which is humanly

And truly 

ocean-deep,

It draws jeers 

And tears all the same-

did you know

that